Today I feel insane.
I could chock it up to the disastrous visit to the dentist that resulted in…
a) TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder)
b) The loss of my trip to New York to watch my baby brother get nominated…because I sunk all of my money into doctor visits and the chiropractor to try and fix my damn jaw.
c) A serious struggle to live with the worst pain I’ve ever experienced next to childbirth.
Or I could blame it on my poor judgment for watching a drama loaded with romantic kisses and perseverant lovers that resulted in...
a) The realization that I am may never attract the person that I want.
b) An irritating desire to go hug a tree, just so I can feel a little love.
c) The embarrassing notion that after 2 ½ years, I still sleep on one side of the bed. And I hate sleeping alone.
Or I could stick it to the fact that I am royally sucking as a mom right now because of the pain.
a) I HATE that I can’t smile and laugh with my daughter.
b) I hate that when she asks me questions I can only mumble in response.
c) I hate that I am so tired in the morning that I let her put on Veggie Tales as I half-heartedly make her breakfast. I’m letting her rot her young brain in front of the telly just to buy myself some time to make a breakfast that isn’t even all that well-balanced.
My one consolation is that she likes to eat raw onion. This will keep her system healthy and I won’t have to worry about keeping the boys away. Now if I can just get her chomping raw garlic…
Oooh Chickadee...I read your post and it made me want to come over with a huge bag or oreos and icecream to blend down and make into a smoothie and then sit down and eat/drink it with you...oh and maybe some margaritas?? While our girls watched veggie tales. FIRST OF ALL let me just address the fact that you are a rockstar hero shera man eating fabulously fantastic WOMAN! The fact that you get so much done on a normal day let alone the days when you aren't feeling up to snuff is beyond belief. You are a fabulous mummy! I have this theory and I know maybe I came up with it on my own BUT my theory is that when you are mother YOU do what YOU as an INDIVIDUAL MOTHER works best for YOU at that moment in time. SCREW the advice from people who don't have children and are "experts" in childupbringing, SCREW the perfect parents who have enough time to iron all their childrens clothes and give them a full balanced diet whilst attending yoga/zumba/karate/cupcake making classes and wine tasting sessions at the same time taking the children to classes and workshops.....NO NO NO you do what works best for you at the given time and situation. There was so much I struggled with mentally with Maggie I really really beat myself up untill one day (and this took a long process) I came to the conclusion that THEY weren't raising her...I WAS raising her. ME. Did I really care if Susie Smith breast fed her child til she was 13 lol....Susie Smiths baby wasn't in hospital the first 9 weeks of it's life. Be the Mummy that you are being, let down your hair and allow her that extra time in the morning watching Veggie Tales...in fact while she's doing that YOU have an extra 15 minutes to give yourself a manicure or an eyes half closed breathing deeply etc...just go with it and be the best that YOU as an individual can be. I think you are doing an amazing job. Wish you were here or vice versa so I could give you a cuddle and babysit for you. Love you loads. xxxxxxx
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