How does one mourn the death of a loved one in writing? How do I, knowing the pain that his family is suffering, write an obituary for a beloved friend? Do I follow the acceptable format, with all it's detail, focus, and contrived sayings, or do I write from my heart, with all the emotion and love that ever made a piece of writing unstable? Polished and sensitive, or honest and raw?
If he were still alive, I could say "I love you" and know that tomorrow I could say it again, and again the day after...and again...and again...
But this is my final statement of love, and it is not mine alone, but that of all the people who loved him far more than I. It's like saying goodbye to a piece of your own heart...and I feel unequipped.
Jene-Paul, I miss you, and I am fighting to find the words.
If he were still alive, I could say "I love you" and know that tomorrow I could say it again, and again the day after...and again...and again...
But this is my final statement of love, and it is not mine alone, but that of all the people who loved him far more than I. It's like saying goodbye to a piece of your own heart...and I feel unequipped.
Jene-Paul, I miss you, and I am fighting to find the words.
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